sadness is a blessing and right as rain

it gets me through a lot even though it puts me through a lot.

he emailed me. and sadly yes i do miss him also, but maybe it's just the idea of who he can be. i miss that person, the one that would write me a letter everyone in a while, the one i had inspired to do a thing or two. it all changed though.

but again, all of this tired me out. the waiting, the putting up with his problems, and most of all loving someone who just simply can't.

we're both better off, but maybe things will work in his favor and he'll be fine, i wish him the best of luck and who knows maybe we will run into each other in the future.




SWAP!

i went on a date or was it a hangout? either way it was nice. we watched sucker punch, which was an awesome movie, i recommend it!

like i was telling my friend...going on a date to me still feels like i would be cheating on someone, but i'm not with him anymore. he helped me to realize that i have all the right in the world to be a free woman and date as many men s i'd like. which made me giggle (while we had some jager)
that i shouldn't feel bad at all and he's right i shouldn't.

this guy was great, he's awkward, funny, and blunt yet interesting. i like hearing his voice, it sort of reminds me of a radio show host. and he compliments me like im the most beautiful thing out there, it's mind-blowing! i just wish we would have had a bit more time together and more to talk about. it's was a good first date and although it shouldn't be the answer, this does help me put him aside and away from my mind.