and i will not deny that it's partly my fault for not providing him enough attention, but he could have tried harder as well. it's all done now though, i fell hard for this man and am frankly still in love with him, but i learned his ways and am glad i didn't get in deep with him, but holy fuck do i miss him. parked car, in the bedroom, or just sitting drinking coffee, all we ever did was listen to the smiths, nothing ever going beyond a kiss or touch. nothing else.
i dont think i'll be pursuing a relationship with anyone anytime soon, even though i do wish i had a companion.
