were all hypocrites. yes, all of us. you me, him, her.
For one, our government is quite hypocritical because most of the time they make up rules for us to follow, yet they themselves do not, in secret and behind closed doors of course. that is until the paparazzi or someone finds out and we all make fun of them. ;)
we always say we will never do this and do that, but we never actually catch ourselves because consciously I don't believe we want to accept the fact were doing the exact opposite of we say. subconsciously we do these things for example; judge and gossip.
you can't tell me you've never judged anyone by the way they've acted, the way they dress, or speak. maybe even their nationality or smarts? oh we all do this! everyone, even if it's a mere "they drive a nice car and wear shades! he/she is a douche!"
I'm going to admit I have done that, sometimes I've even had a little fun doing so. Back to the hypocrisy thing; we all do one thing or another we never said we would. wether it's; never steal, lie, or cheat. big surprise....we have and we do and probably will keep doing so!
I'm talking the bare minimum for those acts, the more serious levels of stealing, lying, and cheating...we shall leave that for another day.
currently I'm watching these girls on tv throw themselves at guys ho don't give a shit about them...some girls are just stupid! I'm judging... :)?
anyway, what do you think about hypocrisy??
I think I made this a bit too general but, please leave your thoughts on this and maybe something I could could write about with more depth.
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Monday, August 23, 2010
our generation
i love our generation. we seem to be more liberal than the rest. it could also be a defect, but all in all I think we realize most of the bullshit going on in the world and our minds are not easily manipulated by the government. yet they do hold the power we so have. lies! we don't. we just put our ideas out there, hopefully a congressperson hears it and considers it. it takes years to get something to the house!
anyway, something our generation and the younger ones are doing as well is being more irresponsible. Some think they know It all and don't need help or think that they will get away with everything. they could, but sometimes it just doesn't work out.
older generations are more conservative and close-minded. they only see life the way they want to see or the way preachers have preached or the government has preached. one minded; where it's this way and this way only. they never see the other side of things.
honestly though; I've notice a teens in the younger generation; they're partying to early and doing drugs. drinking at tender ages of 12. not just drinking, but getting wasted. and what's up with these kids going to raves an passing out. having unprotected sex, too Manu pregnancies.
well I think it's all I have for now, but leave your opinion about this.
anything. for or against my thoughts.
anyway, something our generation and the younger ones are doing as well is being more irresponsible. Some think they know It all and don't need help or think that they will get away with everything. they could, but sometimes it just doesn't work out.
older generations are more conservative and close-minded. they only see life the way they want to see or the way preachers have preached or the government has preached. one minded; where it's this way and this way only. they never see the other side of things.
honestly though; I've notice a teens in the younger generation; they're partying to early and doing drugs. drinking at tender ages of 12. not just drinking, but getting wasted. and what's up with these kids going to raves an passing out. having unprotected sex, too Manu pregnancies.
well I think it's all I have for now, but leave your opinion about this.
anything. for or against my thoughts.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
so sad
it's really sad that I love you. it's really sad that you won't love me. it's really sad you love another who won't love you back. it's really sad that you'll never be mine. it's really sad I gave you my all. it's really sad that i wasn't enough. it's really sad that I'd take you back even after all the shit you've put me through. what really saddens me is that I know we could never happy. with her around.
second best, I've always felt like that. how sad. second best I would have always been if you would have lied. second best i will never be again. for a moment you did feel real, i felt loved, but I won't be your stepping stone. no not your stepping.
on a more casual note; I'm obviously having a hard time getting over you, but I've realized that I need to move on with my life and stop worrying about you. I will always care about you, I will always love the person you are, and I will try to be there for you when I can. But I cannot pretend to be your friend; at least for now. you were my friend you were my boyfriend you were my lover. now because of your past we're nothing. nothing nothing nothing.
I miss you, I wonder if you even think of me or if you even regret meeting me. I should be the one regretting but I'm not. I just hope you see how much I really cared. how much I loved you.
I can safely say I haven't shed a tear over you...today. that's a start. one step closer to getting over us. goodbye my
lover.
second best, I've always felt like that. how sad. second best I would have always been if you would have lied. second best i will never be again. for a moment you did feel real, i felt loved, but I won't be your stepping stone. no not your stepping.
on a more casual note; I'm obviously having a hard time getting over you, but I've realized that I need to move on with my life and stop worrying about you. I will always care about you, I will always love the person you are, and I will try to be there for you when I can. But I cannot pretend to be your friend; at least for now. you were my friend you were my boyfriend you were my lover. now because of your past we're nothing. nothing nothing nothing.
I miss you, I wonder if you even think of me or if you even regret meeting me. I should be the one regretting but I'm not. I just hope you see how much I really cared. how much I loved you.
I can safely say I haven't shed a tear over you...today. that's a start. one step closer to getting over us. goodbye my
lover.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
No need to argue
Well i know it's been some time since Ive written, but so much has been going. Believe me when i say Ive been wanting record these events, even if they bore you/me or not.
In the end he and i split. Everything was going great (like always right?). I gave my entire self up to him and for a brief moment i felt he was mine with tender love and care, but she ended up winning this battle. Him and his ex were actually going to be friends and said OK. I'll deal with it, but it wasn't dealt with so easily. The last meeting they had he fell back into her little spell, or like he said he 'relapsed'. This wasn't fair for me. He doesn't want to me even if i asked. He was ultimately making me feel like i was at fault here, but i know i wasn't. He was. He is.
That night we broke up, i swear to you it felt like someone important in my life just died. Like they were ripped apart from me, from my soul. I undeniably had the worst night; as soon as he hung up, i cried the entire night. No not cried, i wailed, i screamed, i broke down. I started making uncontrollable movements with my body that made me hurt even more as i lay in bed trying to hide my pain and anger. I hope my brother didn't happen to listen. I haven't seen him since saturday, which i admit to have acted stupid on that day. I'm not going to deny i became annoying, but I'm never like that. I was going to meet his ex and i was scared the hell out, scared she would take him away from me that night, but no it happened the next day. Just my luck.
I take this as a slap in the face. I don't regret anything with him nor meeting him. I do regret that he still cant realize she only uses him when shes alone and her friends hate her. He such a great guy, but needs to also learn to face life and realize he cant run away from everything like he did from me.
I miss him, terribly. its sad to say, but deep down, I wait for him. I know he wont come back. Its just a matter of time before he finds someone else. I knew this would happen sooner or later, but i went in either way knowing i would get hurt again. This is the greatest pain Ive ever had to endure.
I love you, but you're not here.
In the end he and i split. Everything was going great (like always right?). I gave my entire self up to him and for a brief moment i felt he was mine with tender love and care, but she ended up winning this battle. Him and his ex were actually going to be friends and said OK. I'll deal with it, but it wasn't dealt with so easily. The last meeting they had he fell back into her little spell, or like he said he 'relapsed'. This wasn't fair for me. He doesn't want to me even if i asked. He was ultimately making me feel like i was at fault here, but i know i wasn't. He was. He is.
That night we broke up, i swear to you it felt like someone important in my life just died. Like they were ripped apart from me, from my soul. I undeniably had the worst night; as soon as he hung up, i cried the entire night. No not cried, i wailed, i screamed, i broke down. I started making uncontrollable movements with my body that made me hurt even more as i lay in bed trying to hide my pain and anger. I hope my brother didn't happen to listen. I haven't seen him since saturday, which i admit to have acted stupid on that day. I'm not going to deny i became annoying, but I'm never like that. I was going to meet his ex and i was scared the hell out, scared she would take him away from me that night, but no it happened the next day. Just my luck.
I take this as a slap in the face. I don't regret anything with him nor meeting him. I do regret that he still cant realize she only uses him when shes alone and her friends hate her. He such a great guy, but needs to also learn to face life and realize he cant run away from everything like he did from me.
I miss him, terribly. its sad to say, but deep down, I wait for him. I know he wont come back. Its just a matter of time before he finds someone else. I knew this would happen sooner or later, but i went in either way knowing i would get hurt again. This is the greatest pain Ive ever had to endure.
sitting
In all honesty... I sit here thinking of you. I wonder how your day went, how you're doing, and if you'll be alright tonight. I secretly wish that one of the messages I receive will be yours, but I feel better today. I don't know what it is... I feel okay.
don't get me wrong, I'm sad, but I can't mope around like this. when you're ready to move on; call me, text me, see me, beg me. One thing I'm afraid of is getting over you and having a life with someone else, scared that I won't be there for you like I tried to be. it also scares me you'll fond someone better. that scares me.
I'll be alright without you, for now.
don't get me wrong, I'm sad, but I can't mope around like this. when you're ready to move on; call me, text me, see me, beg me. One thing I'm afraid of is getting over you and having a life with someone else, scared that I won't be there for you like I tried to be. it also scares me you'll fond someone better. that scares me.
I'll be alright without you, for now.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
lies
Ultimately you've always lied to me. I don't know whether to keep up with this or let it go. i don't know whether to believe if you ever even loved me. I gave my entire self to you. It just not fair, not fair at all.
"I given you my best, why does she get the best you? "
will i be strong enough to say goodbye?
"I given you my best, why does she get the best you? "
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