Sunday, July 31, 2011

i still miss new york

brother and i in times square 
my favorite dress (bloom)



visited the met


my favorite was SoHo

frida :)

there were tons of Picasso's 

walking up to it i cried and i'd love to have it tattooed some day one me

one of the most beautiful sunsets i had ever seen yet on 4th of july

saw a cirque du soleil zarkana performance

we had breakfast at tiffanys

change it up

instead of just posting my mood or events and music, i decided that i will add a little fashion, not much, but me being a fuller girl, maybe someone will like what im wearing. by day and night if i'm not up too much i just wear casual things like a pair of jeans and a tee and sneakers, maybe a jacket or cardigan. i'm very plain and simple, but when it's time to go out i like to get dolled up (or what i think is dolled up haha) every once in a while.

listening to a certain song may even inspire me sometimes and i'm thinking i should also start posting some of my art work soon.

Of Monsters And Men - Love Love Love



i really cannot get enough of them.

i found myself listening to this song again after quite some time and holy shit did it manage to make a low blow. i had not listened to it like i said for a while now, this time i listened to it and heard the lyrics, felt the emotion. and boy did i feel it well. i'm not messed up or anything, it's just the fact that i know how sadly this will end. i just honestly don't think we were meant to be. i feel more than he does, as much as i try to tell myself i don't or that i am not taking this seriously. he seems like he's trying so hard to forget her and god it's been great, but i know it's only a matter of time before things screw up again. i've got a friend who is angry for me even wanting to try again. little does he know i am also, but it's hard to let go of something i care so much for, even though it hurts me sometimes. this isn't too healthy is it? i am an idiot who doesn't follow her own advice. i love love love when i know you can't love. funny little fucked up thing. don't get me wrong i can live alone and be independent, but when it comes to him, sometimes i wish i had never met him, but then i would have never met some of my closest pals. universally maybe he's meant to teach me a lesson, i hope i learn it once and for all soon.

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Big Mama Thornton "Ball And Chain"


this just makes me want to sit down, tap my foot, enjoy a cold one, and nod in pure pleasure. mmm yes

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

lovesong

the cure is at the top of my list, they are my number one, but when it comes to music that hits that nerve and runs through my blood, the artist that seems like they know you and it's almost like they wrote those songs for you, for me it's Adele. Next to the Cranberries, I compare Adele to them. She is my cranberries of today. It's funny to feel that way, but music is so powerful. The way a certain song or artist can make you feel is unbelievable, they do what i wish i could do. Connect with people through song and rhythm. To me she will never be overrated, just like the cure and the cranberries or the whole 80's aren't to me. i have all the hopes to see her on august 17, although i will be starting the school semester by then, i've saved up just for this. the show is sold out, but i will get my ticket no matter what. when i'm inside and catch a glimpse of her, i will be star struck and will become one emotional motherfucker. as soon as i start to hear her sing and watch her with the passion she performs with, i will cry. this may sound crazy, but she (more or so her music) has become a part of me and explain a lot of what i have been through and still am going through.

just a thought.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

cycl3

it's starting all over again. i'm afraid of being lied to all over again, then why take the chance? because i care too much. that's my problem.

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

new york vacation

well my brother and i had decided that we just wanted to go to a place we had never been before and so for a couple of years we saved up and picked new york because it was a stereotypical tourism spot we had always wanted to visit. And now here i am at the holiday inn express near times square wondering, "why the fuck am i in the bathroom making my bed?" i only paid the biggest share and every other extra expenses. i'll tell you why, my brother's childish girlfriend has got me so irritated i don't want to be in the same room with her. personally it takes a lot to irritate me.


so far it's been quite alright, we did the usual; visit the empire state building, head up to the 30 rock, visit the statue of liberty, took a stroll in central park (of the entire park, ENTIRE PARK). No that wasn't exhausting at all... anyway, we went on a radio city music hall tour, a cbs tour and also wandered through the shops on 5th avenue (no tax on clothing, hell yea!) and also went off to try some pizza, had a ton of starbucks, visited SOHO a few times (my favorite), Greenwich village, passed by NYU, and touched the bulls balls (for luck). on the 4th fourth of july we all headed down to the harbor and waited a good hour and a half for a firework show and sooner or later someone started whining and i get why, but  c'mon now. We went along to the natural history museum and the Metropolitan museum, and my favorite MoMA. I was so starstruck by the paintings i saw that i started crying, only a little i promise.

walking around the streets of new york was great and the whole trip was awesome, but remind me again to never allow my brother to bring his girlfriends or anyone that ever bickers with him a ton. i'm not one to become irritated so easily, nor mad. i'm pretty chill and like to go with he flow and let things roll off my shoulder, easy, for me. she was just such a lemon and brought the whole group down, don't get me wrong, my brother did also a few times, but he got over it easily. she, she would just hold a grudge the entire time and just make the mood unbearable, finally i got to a certain point where i couldn't take it anymore and i had to let her have it and let her hear (as well as m brother). she just kept insisting that nothing was wrong with her, but obviously there was because she had a snotty face and pouty lips all day, along with rolling her eyes every second of the day and just wouldn't participate. my brother would also start bickering the time was ruined. as soon as we got off the airplane and landed, the fights started. i honestly never want to bring those two together anywhere again. i had told him as well, but he invited them without telling me anything.

needless to say, even though i payed for most of everything, i ended taking a walk alone in times square and sleeping on the bathroom floor because i did not want to be near her nor feel her presence. i have never been so irritated in my life.


all that aside it was a great time, next i come back i'm coming alone or just with my bro and staying in Greenwich.