things are so drastically changing everyday and the more i read into thing the more i seem to get them.
things are always going to change and i need to learn to deal with it ( i have quite nicely)
i'm doing things differently, although this may seem like stupid idea... i'm dropping one class. that's it. lol
i refuse to get the 'C' and i know i'm so much better than that. so i'll try again next semester or whenever it is that i can. but i'm alright with this. i'll still be a full time student and i'm actually going to apply for a job once i get back from new york, because i want to move out in about a year and a half.
it's sort of stupid how i was trying to find comfort in finding someone new, but that it smoothly settling itself out because i find comfort in a whole bunch of other things! jogging, painting, just hanging out with my friends, joking around, going to the beach, my family, taking my dogs for a walk, sitting under a tree. all of these things seem so much more valuable as time passes, second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day. and i promise i am not exaggerating.
ANOTHER THING...
i've noticed i tend to blog a lot about a certain person, that's stopping, they mean nothing to me anymore. it's all a memory, wether it was good or bad, i'll never say...or i just merely don't want to hear myself say it, or watch myself type it.
i'm forgetting all the love i once knew because it doesn't live here anymore.
im so fucking happy i could scream.
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