I know I haven't found him yet ( could be a girl, you never know), but I prefer him.
as young as I am, I like the idea of settling down. Having a family and making a life together. it's not something I want right now, but I would like this before Im 33ish.
It bothers me that I won't find that person, the one I'd like to spend the rest of my life with. Then again, I could find him tomorrow and bump into him, or I find him in New York this summer. Or find him when I'm 60 or 80 years of age. it's scary.
Being scared about this is so childish, but I don't want to be alone, I want to grow old with someone. watch the sunset and sunrise everyday, appreciate nature, life, and everything in between. I miss feeling like someone needed me, I miss feeling that someone loved me.
what if he's 30 years my major? what if he's 5 years my minor? I don't know this. love doesn't have an age, it doesn't have restrictions.
There are a few people I find myself compatible with; maybe I worthy of their attention and me feeling comfortable with. Yet I always compare or they're taken with a poor relationship.
I don't want a loveless relationship or a temper filled one.
I want someone I can confide in, trust, be silly with and make a fool of myself with, someone I can go to with problems, poke fun at, hold hands with, hurt with, be daring with, be mad at, enjoy everything there is, cry with, smile with, and love just as much I were to.
Finding love is important to me, as silly as it may seem, it is, but I don't fall in love so easily.
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