what is it with this never ending cycle that falls between christmas and my birthday that ends in the destruction of something that had so much potential. well, for starters maybe it just wasn't meant to be. i always try to change the player and we all know they never change. honestly yes, we synced quite nicely, not perfectly, but nicely. i even suggested a "take it back" approach because i got to know this individual for the past two years. he should have taken it back when he had the chance instead of leading me on. partly my fault for believing him. i made up my mind that about 90% of people are the same and we are all susceptible to not pulling through for someone who is important to us. i really love him, i do and i'd probably give him one another chance, but i cut off all communication. i'm glad i did, it makes this whole moving on thing a bit easier. did i mention i tried yoga? i did. i think i'll be doing that once a week for starters and surprisingly i wasn't too bad with my feet.
this year didn't start off quite right, although i did start it getting blatantly hammered and crying (for good reasons!!), but i can choose to screw up anytime i want just much as i can choose when to start fresh. cheers!
ps.- it was the leo agian. i stay in love with a person for a while, until i'm ready to laugh in their faces and call it off. i'm not there just yet.
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