girls are so emotional

i have come to a conclusion that i am ready to commit, but the lack of commitment from my partner is what stops me from wanting to commit, so i guess i'm not. scratch that i ever said i was. i like going out and not having to worry about hurting someone (which is hardly the case), but i also like having someone miss me. Someone being there to hold me by the waist and kiss me from time to time throughout the night. Instead i stand there alone with a drink in one hand and a cell phone in an other, hoping for a text or notification to distract me from all the couples around me who sway around the bar in their melancholic state. shits depressing man. as an aquarius i am known for being a lone wolf and going out and doing things on my own, which is true, i love it. Soon enough there comes a time where i begin to think that it would be nice to share all of what i am doing with someone, but i'm so young and naive, i shouldn't want to be committed to someone so badly, maybe it's just the hopeless romantic in me. i hate that my entire state of mind has been preoccupied with this nonsense stuff lately. I did have my chance..i think, but i missed it and i'm in the friend zone and most likely wont be coming out of it. All i can do is smile and support our friendship along with his new found relationship. i'm still annoying myself.  it's almost as if i'm at a ridiculous pre mid life crisis.