wow, i was just reading my last post. i apologize for not writing, but since then i've been great, experiencing a better time and getting to know family and others better.
i do miss him a little, but fuck that shit. Im moving on and merely enjoying the life i have, im not moping around anyone who fucked me over.
In all honesty I have such an amazing outlook on life, if something bad happens, then it happens, if something wonderful happen then hooray! Life is life, no one really knows whether its dictated by your own choice or if they're just merely planned out already and i find it exciting.
On the other hand, if someone were to approach again, with romantic intention, i couldnt see myself accepting anything. I feel like im playing it safe now. I wouldnt mind going out on a date or two, but to allow somone to grab a hold of me again...its fucking scary.
Im not going to lie and say i havent flirted or thought about going out with somone, i have. But its all still a little weird for me and it seems like something i want to steer away from, plus i want to do this properly this time and not have to keep it a secret. It could have all been karma for me, who knows.
I dont miss him anymore, only when im reminded of certain things, but overall I dont miss you.
Either life will play itself out and ill just give it the extra shove :)
Hooray for will Power!
ps- ill be writing about self image and things like for the next post. *muah*
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