It's been quite a normal day and nothing special has happened, but i find myself thinking of my boyfriend constantly. I am afraid of falling in love because of everything I've seen my brothers do to their past or current girlfriends.
I have three brothers and i am the only girl, so things become much more difficult for me when it comes to going out an d having guy friends. this is the reason why i have to hide the fact that i have a boyfriend. they do not realize that i am capable of having a healthy relationship with someone. My mothers says to wait until i am mature enough ( at the age of 21), this is quite unfair because my 17 year old brother has a girlfriend and i know for a fact that i am a tad bit smarter and more aware of life and things than he is.
I am grateful for not being a jealous girlfriend because i would be on his ass. Considering everything ive seen, i cant help, but be influenced on the way boys are because of my brothers, but ive noticed that ive come to accept more. I know guys will cheat (not all guys) and i may also, you can never say never, but i do not plan on it. My eyes see him only.
It's really funny how much a relationship affects your life and not having enough time with him kills me. I try to see him when i can and find myself lying to just go see. I don't want to lie to my parents, but they just haven't given me the trust i think i deserve.
Besides that,i have a great normal relationship with my parents.
Ps- I am excited for the downtown la art walk this thursday june 10th!
i will be going with him on an outing at night :)
the atmosphere is marvelous
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